Thank you, for being more patient as I have as I leave about a little over a month later than was expected. But what a month and a half it has been! Just in the last week I was with a friend as she delivered her baby!! Her mom didn’t have a car to get down so a friend and I went in the room with her as she delivered! What a miracle it was! I have also been meeting with some beautiful ladies and reading through Christian-life books.
In the midst of waiting though, God has been teaching me some things. I was so eager to go to Spain. I could probably write an entire post about ‘obstacles’ but after hearing the news that it could take 10 weeks to get my Visa, I was crushed. I needed to define a ‘new normal’ in my life while also being ready to leave at any second. So, I dived right in. I was meeting on average with about 10-15 girls a week. Getting coffee, talking about life, Jesus, theology, boys, classes, etc. I found it so important to keep moving. Each day, each step, finding a way to honor Jesus just a little bit more. Yet at the same time I was wondering why I was still IN Normal. I had to trust that God has a reason for all this. Even if I wasn’t sure why, I had to trust.
This new normal was becoming comfortable. I was enjoying waking up every day, seeing friends, playing games with my parents. I was suddenly in this place where I was content. Contentment doesn’t last too long though. I started feeling nervous about Spain. I was questioning whether or not I would be effective, would relate to people, learn enough Spanish…the lies were sinking in. I was trying so hard to trust in God that I was needed in Normal, but then I was perpetuating the opposite…that I wasn’t supposed to be in Spain. Right when I was comfortable with going, I was told I would have to wait. Right when I got comfortable waiting, I was told to go. MY VISA IS HERE. God is faithful.
All this being said, waiting is inevitable. All of life is figuring out what normal is. Living in routine. But God calls us to be living a life in movement. Jesus didn’t own a home, car, dog, anything. Not that those are bad things, but does our routine keep us from living a life dependent on trusting God? The faithfulness shown by God was not only reassuring, but makes me more certain and more excited, about sharing the good news. Just another testament of the ways God knows me inside and out. When I give God to opportunity to move, He does in big ways. I just need to keep letting him.